its never gone .

i hate myself .
i hate myself .
i hate myself .
myself .


i really dont know what i am doing now .
what i am thinking now .
everything just keep stirring in my mind .
its making me mad .
crazy .
collapsing .
what i want now .
is a long sleep .
a sleep that i wont have to wake up anymore .
stop thinking bout everything .


you can say i am over-sentimental .
but tats how it is .
surveys proved it .
i proved it .
many ppl proved it .
i hate it .


put me to sleep .
someone .
PLEASE .
i am pleading for a brain-dead .
so i can stop thinking bout everything .


my head is spinning now .
lack of sleep .
+ work in a damn fcuked up environment .
its enuf to claim my life .


i try to bury myself with work .
but everytime .
memoriies keep flashing back .
i know .
i am being silly .
but i am silly .
nothing can change the fact .
2007 .
i hate you .
i hate everyone .
i hate the world .
i hate myself .


i am transforming .
its bad .
i hate it .
i hate everything .
nothing interests me anymore .
its hopeless .
i know .
i know .
please stop bothering me now .
STOP IT !!!
MY BRAIN !!!
STOP THIS NONSENSE NOW !!!
I HATE YOU !!!


i discovered myself .
lying in the middle of nowhere .
i .
am .
dead .



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