its never gone .

i
told myself .
just abandon the blog .
leave it alone .
but i cant .
duno y .
i just cant .
so here i am .

i have a lot to say .
just too much to say .
but when i came in here .
it turns out .
i am speechless .

1st : NCC IS FACING ITS DEAD END .
2nd : MY SCHEDULE IS SO DEAD .
3rd : I AM IMPROVING IN POOL . COME CHALLENGE ME =)
4th : I CANT BUY A FONE YET !! SIAN !!
5th : WHAT FONE SHLD I REALI BUY ? 850i OR 810i ??
6th : LIFE WITHOUT INTERNET SUX .
7th : WHY CANT TIS FEELING GO AWAY ?

i hab to agree wid wk .
nchs ncc is trying its hardest to maintain .
and in order to make it strong .
i wk sid have to do sth to it .
even if it means to change the whole system .
we must do it .
we CAN do it .
just wait and see .

nb .
nowadays .
i just go back hq .
or go work .
or go meeting .
or go back school help out .
schedule a bit tight ah .
but i love it .
=)
can keep me busy .
AND I LOVE BeiNG BUSY .
=)
cos when i am alone .
imagination will start to run willd again .

nowadays .
keep keeping the com on .
den fell asleep on my bed .
at 0100am .
den lights on .
just sleep on .
den mom will come in .
off everything .
its my daily routine .
it seems like a rotten life .
but thats how .
i live my new life .

i am convinced .
i reali know how to play pool le .
=)
compared with last time .
now is .
wahahaha !!!

i am researching on fones now .
which fone i shld realli buy .
850i is my long long target .
but after seeing it thoroughly .
and jor say :
IF YOU ARE THE PERSON
WHO KEEP DROPPING FONE .
BUY 810I
SAFER .
reali sia .
i am that kind of person .
how how how .
i am reali stuck .
wait until i can buy
den i will reali decide .
anticipate tat day .
=)

if anyone of you were me .
and live my life now .
you can say .
its the best day of your life .
you are totally free .
i go out anytime .
come back anytime .
wear what i want .
go anywhere .
as long as i am free .
i just do it .
but why do i feel so uncontented ?
in fact .
i failed in my life .
i am trying to cover myself .
bury myself with everything .

when i went back to sch .
i was like .
looking for her .
but when i saw her .
i am afraid to face her .
i dunno y .
it contradicts everything .
the truth is .
i am afraid to face her .
yet i want to be with her .
i dont want to be left out again .
everytime i tried to sms her .
i get nth .
expected .
i hate no one .
but myself .

in short .
my life .
is in .
a complete mess .

AKiTO - i was born to die . .
guess my life now .
is just .
wasting my time away .
its a biggest turning point of my life .
but i wish .
everything could return to what it was .
when i was still a naive boy in sec 4 gayy .


[[ let me die pls . ]]