@thedeepestsecret

2012-01-09T20:45:00.004+08:00

2012.

how time have passed.

just years ago i was complaining about everything.

now, i am quietly accepting it.

twist of fate uh.

u know, theres always this mental barrier.

that i think is ruining me.

i dont like to assume,

but i just cant see a clue.

somehow this start of 2012,

i am beginning to feel ....

empty?

cant describe this feeling.

well, no one knows anyway.

no one cares.

mayb its just work that's making me negative.

or is the life after trainee that i am not used to.

if so, i just cant find anyone to confide the problem with.

or not to the person i want to.

well, cancel the negative thoughts tonight.

gotta go in for SDO tmr AGAIN.

my 6th duty.

nb duties never ends.

even when im supposed to be having my off.

-.-

bye.

2011-08-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

it all happened too sudden.

and until now,

i still cant believe that the SCT who died was him.

it was 4 years ago when i first met junsheng.

although starting i did not know how i could clique with him,

but somehow i did.

especially when we both stayed along the NEL,

he instantly became my closest friend in poly.

he enghin and thomas were all smarter,

so naturally i was the "junior" among them.

junsheng would always coach me whenever i dont understand,

even if i didnt even open my mouth and ask.

guess my facial expressions showed it all.

although my results were not as fantastic as his,

he never once gave up on me.

time and again keep telling me to study,

dont keep skipping sch for outside stuff.

when i did skip lessons,

he would be the guy i find first to ask about the stuff i missed out.

and he never once rejected me.

come to think of it,

it was really irritating if someone keep asking you stuff.

when he could have learnt everything himself if he dont miss it purposely.

many occasions i admit.

i didnt do what he wanted me to do.

and for that i often felt guilty.

i didnt want to disappoint him,

as the FYP project was his hard work.

time and again, he reminded me to study,

helped me out whenever i needed help.

and the best part is,

we like to eat.

hahahah.

since we both stayed along NEL,

and we always go home together,

whenever it was too early,

we would find some place to find some food.

and slowly enjoy the food.

gradually he and i had quite a lot of common hobbies.

the type of songs we like,

our liking for nice food,

MP3 and electronic devices.

he would often be the one that initiates any gathering,

and make sure things happen when most of us dont rly bother.

although all these small tasks he did were not impactful,

it did affect everyone of us in our daily life.

especially for mine.

now without the stress from school work,

talking to him was more stress-free.

and we had a lot of common topics to talk about.

he had alot of positive influence on me,

especially the character of not giving up.

even if it takes a few weeks to only find one small detail,

he would find it, and continue until everything became clearer.

i never once doubted his plans for the future.

i knew that, his future would have been a bright one.

but i never expected,

to see his name on the news.

it is sudden, and i still cant accept this fact.

i lost a good friend, a mentor.

words cant describe how much i admired his character,

and appreciated all he had done for me.

it's heart-wrecking to know that i would never get to see you online again,

or ever ask us out again for a simple gathering.

i cant find another person to discuss about liverpool stuff as much as i did with you.

if only my words and gratitude can make your heart beat again.

because losing a friend like you,

is really losing a good part of myself.

rest in peace junsheng.

my trusted friend.

2011-07-13T00:59:00.002+08:00

hey world.

its been long since i last visited this page.

and yeah suddenly i find it a need to find sth to pen my thoughts down.

and so i figured, yeah this is it.

anw, JCC is finally over.

the entire brunei package is over.

and it was a awakening call for me.

in some way or another.

lets just start with being there for the first few days.

i knew what i wanted to accomplish in brunei.

and it was not the first few days.

it was the JCC.

well, who wasnt feeling that way.

and so the first few days didnt go too well.

had my rashes out of nowhere.

sweating like hell every minute the sun was out.

trying to catch my breath after every exercise.

just the first few days alone made me feel weak.

the feeling of "how the fuk am i gonna survive JCC."

everyday in brunei was a mad rush.

at some point u wont understand what was happening.

i cursed and sweared at everything.

i was basically feeling shyt.

as the days go by, it got better.

the 2 days before JCC was not tat great.

i was still trying to recover from my rashes/itch.

all the lectures and prep talks for JCC all kept coming.

something like a morale booster, but i rarely felt it.

i just wanted to get it over and done with.

finally JCC started.

everyone was hyped up.

for some reason when i was reciting the ranger's water parade lines,

i felt emotional.

and i was not the only one (i only found out few days later)

and everything just started.

just within the first 2 hours of the first day.

i was soaked in the heavy rain.

everything was wet.

and the feeling was not good at all.

worst is.

i couldnt even plot.

so how the fuk are we going to navigate through the forest.

yeah and so,

first day ended in quite a bad note.

we were lost at some point.

we had to go back to a single known point for more than 5 times.

and sometimes we were even lost after trying to backtrack for 50m.

the first day,

i already felt unhappy about some stuff.

but i chose to keep it to myself first.

the 2nd day was not any better.

although the start was good,

somehow hitting the stream continuously was totally depressing.

as usual, we found a UNKNOWN checkpoint.

and got lost there.

really screwed up our plans for any hopes of completing navigation fast.

and some bad decision making didnt really help.

my detail ended up sleeping downslope beside ridgeline.

totally no flat ground to sleep.

no place to start fire.

no place to feel the dryness.

the whole night was a total disaster.

day 3, start of never-ending walk.

moral is high, and everything was going quite well.

no idea why but there was this anxiety.

to finish the whole walk FAST.

somehow, we got lost AGAIN.

and this time,

with almost everyone we know of.

but it's during this night.

i finally realised some things about the detail.

and some people's way of thinking.

next day was pure endurance.

its up and down, up and down.

and WE GOT LOST.

i dont unds y we can get lost every single day.

until some point in time.

i felt like burning down the whole forest.

and the day didnt end exactly well.

our detail is like falling apart.

the only time when all of us felt relieved,

is when we finally reached our objective.

and kick start our survival phase.

people say survival phase is the best time to reflect on your life.

for me,

NO.

its just continuously building.

to build the best shelter for myself.

and so it wasnt really enjoyment.

it was only the satisfaction i had.

when the entire shelter was complete.

the days spent alone was bad.

totally drenched even when temporary shelter,

freezing in the rain,

killing.

all i know is,

i start to appreciate little things in life.

like the breeze during mid day.

the sun shining near my shelter (can dry my items)

the dry ground i had,

and even the cloudy days.

i didnt care about whatever image.

all i wanted was to find any way.

to make me feel comfortable in the most uncomfortable environment.

the final day i thought would be a breeze.

turned out it wasnt.

it was the time when true colors of everyone surfaced.

i am glad my detail didnt have much issue,

just that some of them were irresponsible.

in taking care of themselves.

it was really pure motivation for everyone.

somehow, i felt a need to be the one standing up.

rally everyone to the finishing point.

and indeed, it was worthwhile.

somehow my detail was the first team to arrive.

hahahah

so what have i really learnt?

a lot.

decision making.

everyday i had to make one.

whether to stop, whether to continue.

where to harbour.

what i know is, decisions are hard to make.

especially pleasing decisions.

i cant possibly please everyone.

so the best thing to do is,

do what is right and best for everyone's interest.

be firm with the decision.

it may be wrong, but at least it is not misguided.

next, comfort.

out in the wild, we have to find our own comfort.

there is no such thing as bed or pillow,

or even a heater.

whatever we wna have,

we have to make it ourselves.

it may be tiring and troublesome,

but small comfort can go a long way.

next, mind over body.

being negative doesnt solve any problem.

it will only worsen.

staying positive not only make you think better,

but also feel better.

sometimes you have no idea how much u have left,

until you really gave it your all.

during climbing of mountains especially.

i see the height, i feel like giving up.

but seeing others going up too, i know i can do it.

just needa keep pushing myself.

mind controls the body.

the worst i learnt, is human nature.

not everyone knows how to share.

only at toughest times,

you will naturally reveal yourself.

i saw my frens' details fall apart.

heard of instances of selfish people and how they act.

its fucked up, but cant be blamed.

you want to survive, others too.

so do what is best for urself becomes a natural instinct.

what i like about the entire brunei trip,

is really what i learnt.

everything in life is very complex.

that's y most of us are not contented with what we have.

only when everything is taken away from you,

you will then start to realise,

living under a shelter is already a luxury.

food to eat, water to drink, friends to talk to.

that's all it mattered most.

be contented with what i have,

and make the best out of what i have.

instead of complaining what i do not have.

and true enough, when i came back to sg,

i have this sense of enlightenment.

what i have is more than enough.

learn to be contented.

learn to appreciate little things in life.

be more grounded.

and NEVER POINT FINGERS.

as a leader especially,

you cant be biased.

or let your emotions get the better of you.

in a team, everyone contributes,

just in different ways.

appreciate their efforts, and not despise them.

and now, i feel like i can accomplish anything.

=))

and also, the thoughts of signing on army surfaced again.

mayb i shld really give it a serious consideration....

and i think i am addicted to war movies.

what i can learn from it.

war is really cruel.

soldiers at our level are not fighting for the nation,

but rather fighting for each other in the battlefield.

that's y comradeship is so important.

and that is y i love charlie wing.

it feels like a home to me.

well, time to sleep.

2011-05-17T20:17:00.006+08:00

nightmares.
every single week.

if its not route marches,

den its assignments.

really, since when am i those who will do homework diligently?

i dont have the mood.

i guess, the best is i remain inside camp.

den i will have the mood for everything.

JCC date is out.

21st June im leaving this town.

3 wks.

10 July back, 7 Aug fly again.

TAIWAN~!!

hahahah.

okay all these goals set.

all thats left is me.

do or die.

=))

vesak day.

i dont do my work.

at all.

hahah.

so next time, just dont let me come out.

i can focus more.

i guess.

from now onwards,

my weekends are officially burnt.

the 24hr book out.

yeah its coming to me now.

sadded, but why not.

only can experience it once in a lifetime.

主动？hmmmm...

2011-04-03T13:39:00.003+08:00

blink of an eye.

3 months passed.

and im getting real comfortable in OCS.

almost loving the life inside.

well, apart from all the outfield exercises im having.

just 2 months plus ago, i was still complaining about OCS.

it seemed like that place doesnt suit me.

all the formalities.

the cultures.

but well, time changes everything.

it isnt always tat formal.

find the best way to survive.

learn to adapt.

tats the best way.

didnt regret not giving up until now.

everyday im learning meaningful lessons.

regardless of how senseless it may seem at times.

going pro term soon.

more nightmare coming soon.

brunei, taiwan.

naise~

service term nightmare is just about to be over.

and so glad it is coming to an end soon.

just few days ago when i was inside tat jungle.

i almost broke down.

just imagine more than 18 lives down just because of my failure.

not so nice afterall.

fail to plan = plan to fail.

yeah i really failed.

i realised the importance of planning.

be ruthless at times.

never compromise standards for welfare.

best welfare is upholding the best standards.

so many important values learnt.

in just a short span of 4 days.

i learnt it through the hard way.

and i learnt it very well.

glad to be in charlie wing.

glad to be in OCS.

we are one.

Charlie.

2011-01-03T15:01:00.002+08:00

not supposed to be here.

but yea since still at home,

y not.

lazy to make new yr resolution this yr.

cos seriously, i got nothing much i wanna change.

i love my life now.

hope this yr will be even better.

especially when its my 21st yr alive.

but theres only 1 resolution i hope this yr.

1. complete my 24km route march and enter marina platform.

with all my buddies in BMT.

will seriously miss them after this week.

been through a lot with them.

my nights are never boring with them around.

who cares if theres no internet.

who cares if theres no phone.

they are the best friends i have in tekong.

with that, all i hope is for the god damn MO

to clear my status tomorrow and dont drop my pes.

i wanna continue on training and march on.

yes.

make my last week of bmt.

be my most memorable 1.

but who is not afraid of the postings.

still quite worried.

well, did all i could. =)

2010-12-19T14:23:00.002+08:00

well, days passed, weeks passed.

6 weeks just passed like that.

just when i got real comfortable with my bunk mates.

joke and live together.

POP is just around the corner.

all my high key events are over.

well except the grenade throw part.

tomorrow =)

"grenade"!

and tat 5 min is all it will take.

a bit wtf i know.

but well, who gets to throw a live grenade anw.

just throw only.

life in tekong is not tat bad as it seems.

only for the fact tat sometimes life is unfair inside.

and some people can just be that stupid.

but tat keeps us all going aint it.

all just scold tat dumb ass.

laugh at every little things.

looking forward to friday every week.

yeah =)

been a bit disappointed with my IPPT results.

standing board jump getting lousier every week.

running just gets so hard to improve.

i want my gold.

really want it.

but just by thinking not enough.

1 more ippt pls.

i wan to get the gold.

not for any $$, but for my own glory.

9.44 leh.

i have never hit tat 9 mark before.

let me hit it once.

at least in tekong.

run until almost wan die, thats the technique.

lol.

try try try try.

christmas special this coming week.

how special is it.

i also dono.

just take a step at a time.

the best will be.

everyday dont do much, just do running training.

sing christmas carol everyday.

let us sleep more.

book out early.

thats the best christmas gift i can have in tekong.

hope that happens =)

well, got nothing to complain eh.

life is treating me real well.

2010 is a good yr afterall.

but if only....

aiyah never mind nothing. =)

2010-11-28T16:16:00.002+08:00

3 wks into army.

yea its fun.

cos i got into a welfare company.

if u go and compare to 5th coy tat is.

didnt rly have a hard time adapting.

serious.

its just like going to another camp.

just tat the bed is nicer.

and i am the trainee.

the 1 kanna all the nonsense is all of us.

but still, 7th company is the nicer company i heard.

and true.

(Y)

marksman alrd.

now to move on to field camp and SIT test.

everything should end before christmas.

can enjoy by then i hope.

and still aiming for my ippt gold.

the only thing stopping me is.

2.4KM - 9MIN 44 SEC.

tats the only hard part.

chiong ah chiong.

make my 9 wks in tekong count.

time to pack up.

back to the island.

5 days in camp is actually nothing.

enjoyable.

and with the $13 worth of biscuit i buying in,

how to not enjoy.

LOL

2010-10-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

seems like blogger is owned flat by twitter.

who blogs anyway nowadays.

hahah

anw am getting real irritating bout those spammers in tagboards.

no wonder people stop using bloggers.

well, working in nchs is real fun.

actually not always.

u get wad i mean.

its just interesting to see how innocent and naive sec 1 kids can be.

and realise how much we have changed since sec 1.

ppl are always saying: hey we didnt change! we are still the same.

nahhh its really different.

kinda makes me miss my sec sch days.

the no-need-care-so-much-jsut-play days.

counting down to end of work: 3 days

counting down to enlistment: 15 days

kinda looking forward to it.

den again, not rly.

who dare says being a relief teacher.

you set a END OF YR paper.

you set 1 class test, edit BOTH CA2 AND SA2.

and sit thru marking day marking like a dog.

attended the promotion day meeting.

discuss how to help those pathetic students promote.

not forgetting tons of homework to mark.

staying in sch from 7am to 5pm.

when you just need to stay for 5.5hrs for a full day pay.

and the subject you're teaching is not exactly ur fav.

seriously, where can you find such a job?

i found tat.

and yea survived it.

2010 really is a crazy year for me.

very.

did a lot of unexpected stuff.

and finally got past my bday.

man y cant i get a healthy birthday.

just eat, celebrate go home sleep.

i just had to go to powerhouse.

drink ak47, flaming lambo, waterfall, almost drank graveyard.

and totally knockout even before 15min.

this is really the 1st time.

i lost my memory of wad happen for the first few hrs of my bday.

and for this past wkend, i have been drinking non stop.

fri - with arthur and gang.

sat - with poly mates, and jor and gang.

sun - with father and sister at coffeeshop.

yes FATHER and SISTER.

LOL.

telling them how drunk i was at midnight.

and how i look like a clown when i came home at4am.

its amazing how my dad can ask me if i wan eat mee sua at 4am.

and telling me "you shld be sleeping late, so wan eat first before you sleep?"

i still remember this line before i went to sleep.

wow i guess blogger got some use afterall.

imagine i type all these in twitter.

it will be neverending.

shout it all out!

okay back to editing my work.

tomorrow shall print things for those small kids of nchs.

man y i treat them so well sometimes?

better than i treat my frens.

hahah weird.

2010-09-11T15:05:00.002+08:00

the whole of the school holidays.

i am supposed to mark papers,

set papers,

and see what is left to teach for term 4.

but now,

I HAVENT EVEN STARTED ON 1 YET.

well done man.

holidays is really not the time to work.

went for my last senior spec cse last wk.

along with weibin.

our 4th ssc alrd.

well, last ssc for me not so much trouble.

it was simple task for me.

just taking 1 pltn and tell them wad to expect.

sometimes kinda miss going to camps.

poking fun of those sec sch kids.

those memories.

wadever the office politics,

its still a place i find it worth going back for.

my last event soon.

and bbye to central district.

time to enter the real world soon.

(aint i inside it now anw -.- teaching)

crap.

shall start marking papers.

the papers alrd have a layer of dust on it alrd.

how long have i last touched the stack seriously.

2010-08-30T23:58:00.003+08:00

well, supposed to be sleeping now.

but, since tmr sch half day, and i got no freaking stuff to do.

just forget bout sleeping. =)

work so much makes me realise the importance of resting.

yes very.

_|_ the money.

i need to breathe.

teaching although not tat tough,

the tough part is this.

the 1 big stack of papers i received last monday.

and yea although i completed this stack in 1 wk,

all thanks to ah seah last min scare,

i still have 1 more class test,

1 more end of yr paper.

TO MARK AND SET.

wtf.

$65 per day not easy to earn .

and i am very surprised to receive this.

HAHAHAHAHAH.

well, didnt expect anything at first.

i wouldnt initiate a class to write bout a teacher.

who just taught 1 month.

but surprisingly.

tats something nice for me today. =))

k time to sleep.

wed is freaking precious.

after tat, CAMP.

2010-08-18T11:13:00.002+08:00

blogging in sch.
so u can roughly see how good my timetable is.
=))

sec 1.
supposed to be the 1 tat listens to teacher most.
well, tat is the case for 7/8 of the class.
all but 1.
dunno how to handle,
but if they were in military context,
i would have slaughtered them straight.

that seems to be the idea.
older teachers are generally better at dealing them.
experience is the word, yes.
start to wonder how teachers in the past were when we were sec 1.
hahahahah.
give them detention, not my style.
ask them stay back, also not my style.
take a gun and shoot them, =))
in my imagination lo mayb.

mr chong scolding ppl outside staff room.
interesting .
ahhh fuck it.
continue working.

2010-08-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

its 12 and i am not asleep.

i bet i will sleep in staff room tomorrow again.

but wadever.

somehow a half day for me anyway.

since 2nd half of the day is no teaching =))

for every friday tat is.

hahahah.

i got 300 scripts to mark.

each script 3 long answer qn.

tat makes 900 interesting answers.

by the time i finish, i can really remember.

definition of MEANDER, DELTA and FLOODPLAIN.

better than the students.

man, students shld be test markers for a day.

tat way can boost their memory.

TREMENDOUSLY.

okay enuf nonsense.

sleep.

2010-07-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

been telling myself to type.

at least some rubbish here.

but just cant find the time,

mood,

and wadever rubbish i can think of.

got quite a lot of pics.

but just lazy to upload.

and wads the point anyway.

lol

yea had fun teaching in nchs for 1 wk.

yea 1 wk only.

but better than nothing.

fav subject, toughest level.

A,E maths for sec 4, 5

amazingly i still can remember all the steps.

and i can teach things that i have never understood.

for the past 6 yrs.

somehow it just strikes me.

while i was teaching.

pro or wad.

hahahahah

going back to teach again on 1st aug.

just when i decided to go overseas walk walk.

=.=

this time,

geog for sec 1.

i also dono how it will turn out to be.

well,

at least i have a job.

and can kill time.

as i type longer,

my fingers are getting weirder.

like the entire skin is damn thick.

drank too much on fri.

=))

compass test tmr.

by right i shld be sleeping now.

and yes i shld go sleep now.

5 hours of test tmr i suppose?

lets just hope my concentration can last the entire 5hrs.

bring out my gaming lifespan =)

time out.

2010-07-11T12:46:00.002+08:00

been a bit long since i came here uh.
sometimes just dont feel like coming here.
brain locked you see.
=)

been on a world cup fever nowadays.
especially when semis are here.
i think i watched all of them?
yea.
plus bet a bit can really make my mood higher.
wow i shld have trusted that 8-legged freak earlier.
lol
although i won only $2.50 ytd nite,
BUT WELL, ITS STILL $$ RITE.
hehehehehe.

its been like 5 months since i touched a test paper?
and yea i gonna do 4 later.
just for the sake of being well-prepared for monday.
yes u guessed it.
teaching.
reliefing mr koh class is not easy.
3 sec 4 class, 2 sec 5 class.
a bit wan my life ah.
nvm i know everything will work out fine.
YEAH?
so now,
let me see how to do that vectors question ~~

and sickening sunday.
need to go all the way to bedok to make police statement.
tat idiot who took my ic really has done it again.
i tink he signed 1 more new line?
pundeh~
waste my time.
until now i still cant find him.
m1 really is useless.
i even planned on now calling bedok police station.
ask if they can drive to my hse here and send me there.
very far to go there u know.
siao 1.

so yea lets get started on maths paper.
=))

2010-06-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

finally found the mood to blog again.
been rotting at home for awhile now.

wth.
sudden shock.
was typing halfway,
den my neighbour kid, lucas, appear beside me.
yea hes shorter than my table.
gave me a big shock.
heng he dono how to laugh at ppl for sudden jumping.
=))

anw,
my airborne finished like last thurs.
very luckily.
all i can say is.
(Y)
since the day i entered the course,
i keep wishing i can hurry up and jump.
so yea wish fulfilled =)

first 8 days of the course was all training.
side right! side right, GO!
Push, Turn, and Roll Over. Recover!
tats wad i can hear for almost everyday.
doing all those break fall really break me.
there is not 1 day my back, knee, neck not aching 1.
really is do until left knee almost gave way.
+ the sickening flu tat made 3 most impt days of the training untolerable.
yes tat was training.

think is cos i went for diving course alrd.
tats y when it came to jumping off the tower,
there was no fear.
lol.
its like only 5 storey ?
with harness somemore.
not so scary leh.
its the simplest task of the course.
=))
doing break fall test was not easy AT ALL.
with a strained left knee.
almost failed.
almost.
couldnt complete 1 fall properly.
it was also the time when it was mind over body.
keep diverting myself from knowing my knee is injured.
jsut do the wadever stunt i needed to complete.
so wad do u know?
i passed =)

jump 1 was supposed to be on 17th.
pilot cancelled it =.=
went ahead with chinook jump.
18th.
its an early morning jump.
i was in lucky sortie 1.
with the colonel, mdm, all the officers.
wow morale boost man.
they are like so freaking high inside the chinook.
i just followed them.
yea so when time for me to jump,
i happily jumped out.
with my eyes fully open.
yes, i jumped out of a perfectly functioning plane.
feeling is GREAT.
got twists in my parachute,
and i didnt realise.
until when it suddenly gave me a jerk.
the parachute automatically untwist. =)
both jumps land in grass.
those soft soft 1.
super easy la.
just roll on the grass.
and i am done.

2nd jump i became 1st jumper.
it is NOT funny.
i stood at the door,
freaking look at the chinook turn.
and when i look down,
it was expressway.
the instructor tell me to JUMP.
WTF?
but yea their parking good.
so still land inside DZ.
hahahah

was called back for the 3rd jump on 24th.
the C130.
tats wad everyone said.
the real kick starts there.
arranged myself in the last few people to jump off.
so hahahah no worries 1.
somehow or rather.
the plane i was in .
went up and down for 1 hr + .
with all of us inside.
initially all 50 of us still happy talking.
after 1/2 hr inside with NO 1 JUMPED OUT.
all sian.
start to sleep.
den the freaking plane LAND.
and we stayed inside.
=.=
uncomfortable sleeping position,
with slight giddy.
and i think all of us if start to talk more,
will start to puke.
when it is finally time to jump,
all freaking no mood.
yea i was just thinking.
i wan to jump off.
i dowan stay inside plane and puke.
and somehow i became last jumper.
was ASSISTED out of the door.
that is the most blank moment of my life.
worse than chinook jump.
i went out, stare down, whole body just follow the wind.
somehow i was pulled back to look at my parachute.
i stare at it, and i just stoned there.
until my memory came back few sec later.
lol.
and the most fucked up part came.
i was SUPPOSED to land in grass.
i aimed alrd.
wind suddenly grew strong.
blow me jsut nice on top of runway.
nxt thing i know.
i only remembered to bend knee.
and i just slammed on the ground.
butt landing, den back.
instant butt numb.
+ still kanna drag by parachute.
not so good ah.
at least i completed it.
at the end of the day,
i graduated with 36 other ppl.
those lucky few.
some others was pushed back to other days.

Airborne Creed
i am an airborne trooper! a PARATROOPER!
i jump by parachute from any plane in the flight
i volunteered to do it knowing well the hazards of my choice
i am an elite trooper -- a sky trooper -- a shock trooper --a spearhead trooper
i blaze the way to far-flung goals - behind, before, above the foe's front line
i never fail a fellow trooper
i cherish as a sacred trust the lives of the men with whom i serve
leaders have my fullest loyalty, and those i lead never find me lacking.
i have PRIDE in the AIRBORNE
i never let it down
I AM AIRBORNE!

tat marks the end of my ncc life.
nothing else to aim for alrd.
been in ncc for long enough.
time to move on to army =)

right now,
i can fully occupy myself with being a detective.
find out who the mofo who used my ic to sign new m1 line.
so far,
m1 never contact me.
if this wk no news,
i will find out the person myself.
freaking dumb ass.
signed the line when i was in camp.
i just have to wait for news =)
meanwhile,
WORLD CUP TIME.

2010-06-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

going for jump in a few hours time.
should be at 1530hrs.
it better dont rain.
i want to clear it fast.
clear it now.
=)

shall blog more after my 3 successful jumps.
currently only 2/3 successful.
and i am still alive and kicking =)

treat every jump as ur first.
safe jump = good jump.
AIRBORNE.

2010-06-12T19:07:00.002+08:00

cool.
initially just feel like just coming here for awhile.
in the end changed my entire blog design.
hahahah
i got something to do after my airborne =)

ytd hysterically had so much energy.
whole morning - evening was so freaking active.
i literally find something to do.
tats like some magic powers i have on a fri.
my sickness somehow seem cured.
was so anticipated to go home.
and when i reached home,
I WAS LOCKED OUTSIDE.
from the whole 730pm to 930pm,
i was freaking sitting at the corridor.
waiting for my blur mom to come home.
(in the end my father came home 1st -.-)

and coolest thing is.
my 01 neighbour was so nice to invite me to their hse.
after seeing my bag outside the hse.
and i was wandering aimlessly at the lift area.
lol
how to make myself occupied?
i played with their kid.
think 3 or 4 yrs old only?
ahahahah lucas =)
keep trying to entertain him.
to entertain me.
hahahaha.
its really hard when u have to piece his words.
just to figure what he meant?
never mind i tried.
looked like an idiot.
hahahah
his parents also know i trying to figure wad he says.
cos i bet they also dono wad he says.
guess i was super attentive when lucas speak.
1st time i pay so much attention to s1
talking and making actions at the same time.
he actually take toys for me to play!
LOL
i wanted to teach him put the train tracks tgt.
in the end me and his parents sit down tgt.
trying to match the tracks.
it became us playing instead of him.
LOL no.2
playing with a kid is so interesting.
play until my father came home.
i still dowan go back.
sit down until lucas finally sit down watch tv.
den i go.
好人做到底 ah.
=)

movie marathon at night.
freaking tired alrd.
shld have stayed home watch world cup.
or just tell darren to go beach party.
kpkb all the way to ehub.
1st was Ateam.
k la funny.
i dono y i wasnt laughing.
body already damn weak alrd.
den wait for bloody 1hr40min for nxt show
at 240am.
karate kid.
really forcing my body to act up.
the show is nice.
but i just cant enjoy it.
bad day to watch movie z.z

okay now continue to recover my body.
nxt wk is my live descent.
AIRBORNE!
please dont rain on thurs and fri.
thank you very much.
and hope my left knee dont get injured.
and just hope nxt wk.
EVERYTHING GOES WELL.
tat will be all.
=)

so can i watch world cup online?
=)))

2010-06-10T20:39:00.002+08:00

i am at home now.
yea nothing special.
nights out.
after today training cancelled.
lucky they nights out.
i really wonder if i can endure anymore if i stay in camp.

my stomach is acting weird.
think is diarrhoea.
and my whole body is feeling damn cold.
the feeling of no strength?
if tat happens at home i dont mind.
fuk.
i am in training.
and i am really half dead.
i seriously dono how i did my drills just now in the morning.

stomach acting up again.
fuking diarrhoea.
and damn the cold.
i want to pass out from the course.
not going to drop out.
ENDURE!

okay time for toilet break.
and the time now is telling me,
i need to go back real soon.
z.z

2010-06-06T20:42:00.004+08:00

booking back in AGAIN.
its only the 1st bookout/book-in.
and i start to complain.
imagine theres 2 more of tat.
damn i cannot imagine.

the truth is...

civilian life is really better.
yea man.
3 more weeks.
AIRBORNE!

the more i stay at home,
the more i dowan to go out.
GOING OUT NOW.!

2010-06-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

initially, i got the mood to blog.
after i see my enlistment date,
i got no fuking mood already.
WTF IS IT DOING DURING NOVEMBER ?!
from now until november wan me to do wad ?!
ppl ORD i still waiting enlist.
FUCKING SIAN LEH.
WOAH DAMN DULAN I TELL YOU.

yea but anyway, still ok la airborne course.
fall until whole body ache.
attempted to lie on bed and get up just now.
its highly impossible if i dont hold the railings.
well, few more wks + 2 or 3 successful jumps for it to end.
=)
but wad i dislike is.
FUK LA MY ENLISTMENT DATE.

2010-06-01T21:57:00.003+08:00

as i am eating now,
i am counting down to the start of course.
lol

almost vomitted blood just now at hq.
yea it is REALLY messy.
but nvm its up to the new ppl to arrange.
i cant possibly poke into all sorts of things alrd.
jsut my nature perhaps.
wadever things happen during camps,
i must find ways to solve it den leave.
this is sort of the 1st time i not doing tat.
a bit uneasy.
bahhh wadever.
havent even started packing my bag yet.

spam music like mad now.
for the nxt 3 days no music.
face the wadever talks.
but seriously,
even diving course also can pass alrd.
wads airborne course?
tio bo ?
=)

okay start to pack my bag soon.
after i eat my fruits + dessert. =)

edited// 2348hrs
sleep time.
yea looking forward for tomorrow.
i think i will have mixed feeling tmr on the bus.
but yea its normal.
for BDC i also liddat.
thinking wtf am i doing in NDU.
nxt moment i finish course.
=))
shall be back on fri.
I HOPE.

2010-05-31T22:53:00.003+08:00

i think tomorrow onwards,
i am sort of away of my house until further notice already.
going down help out spec cse.
shld be staying until late at night.
after tat still need to pack for my airborne course.
FYI, i am in airborne course.
=)
2nd June - 25th June
this is like the pre-quel of NS.
while everyone hates it damn a lot,
i keep going for more.
something is definitely wrong with me.

man i still remembered what happened yesternight.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
better not mention it.

this feeling is somehow familiar.

at least now i dont have to worry about thinking of sth to do.
on a pathetic weekday.
its a chore seriously.

okay sleep time.
gonna wake up damn early tomorrow.
on the other hand,
just stay awake ba.
i might just become a 24 hour help desk for admin today.
yea precaution.
better than someone call me while i sleeping.
so meanwhile,
pool master. =)

Listening to: Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

2010-05-30T10:59:00.002+08:00

blogging on my new com.
just tat the screen is not mine.
feels good man.
still considering if i shld just fix my laptop.

wait and wait.
tuition starts at 1030.
now the time is?
still waiting.
y i say afternoon i got nothing on?
shld have said yes. =.=
at least there will be a sense of urgency.

until now,
i dono if i am really confirmed for airborne course.
no formal confirmation from hq side.
so its a yes or no?
if yes, will be gone until 25th june.
wad a way to spend my holidays.
den i can happily go find a job until army letter comes to me.
hey good plan. =)
if not, jason buy de stuff abit wasted.

planned on going a road trip to malaysia.
over some weekends.
just to eat.
and eat.
yea sick of singapore food.
anyone?

and lastly, any nice movies to watch?
on a online-watching spree.
yea can spend my time peacefully until monday.
wait, isnt that tomorrow?
okay time isnt that long.
nvm.

continue waiting.

2010-05-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

currently using eben spare com.
wow i kinda like windows 7.
very comfortable to use.
even the keypad also very nice to type.
lol.

tomorrow hopefully going to buy my com.
see wad time going SLS.
god damn.
i need a decent com like real soon.
rely on laptop also not tat nice.
at least some decent com.
so i can do my transformation to it.
and at the same time, let my mom use.
time to go on privacy with her.
later she anyhow open anyhow delete,
my documents all gone.
yes needa plan all these.
u have no idea how blur and act smart she can get.

been trying to teach her english for the past week.
ok la her age wan learn english a bit hard.
but den LOOK AT THE WORDS LA.
"I" also dono how to pronounce ?!
"THANK YOU" ???? woah i dono wan laugh or shout.
that kind of feeling can anyone understand?
scold also not right, how can anyhow scold parents.
laugh also not right, later they emo.
woah cannot take it.

airborne course selection coming soon.
like in 3 days time.
should be prepared.
if i dont get in, never mind ba.
suddenly realised i got a lot of things to do for june.
if i dont go for airborne.
nahhhh dont think so much.
never get in den say.
confident.

let me tio 1 random 4D draw for 1 time please.
bo lui alrd.
lol.

sleep time.
0730hrs at hougang stadium.
not a very good feeling bout that seriously.
Z.Z

song listening to: Miranda Cosgrove - Kissing You

2010-05-13T13:54:00.002+08:00

this may jolly well be the last time i blog using this com.
looks like this com is going to up-lorry real soon.
sort of fixed it this morning,
was using it perfectly.
until i started playing warcraft.
my com started to hang again.
ehhh, now cant even go to loading screen.
hang even before the system load finish for me to even see any desktop.
z.z

wadever.
shld buy a new com real soon.
the only problem will be:
i cant use it at my room anymore.
i think.
if lets just say i gonna share with my parents.
yea.
my speaker how.
i also dono.
mayb just plug into a fone radio or mp3 player.
play music sua.
dono, dont care.

lucky i put all my impt stuff into my harddrive now.
my dear 500gb, u better dont fail.
let my cmi 3-yr-old com die.
i can foresee.

okay restart com for a few more times.
if really cant den forget it.
this com is gone.

2010-04-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

blog is rotting.
and i dont even care.
cos theres twitter.
so sad for blogger.

decided to come here and slack my way thru wed night.
since i got nothing to do for the past few days.
hqncc literally became my another home AGAIN.
in and out of hq daily.
and the most irritating thing is.
i need to go CMPB AGAIN for checkup for BAC.
just becos i itchy hand go scratch my eye.
they say i got sore eyes.
need to come again .
its not funny when u need to go to redhill area again.
when u dont have a MRT concession.
and u are using the bloody adult fare to pay for transport.

nxt week BAC selection.
cool if i get selected.
chill if i dont.
still waiting for letter anyway.
hopefully i get the telemarketer job.
although i dont really like to handle ppl over the phone.

wads the ideal job?
RELIEF TEACHING.
shall look into that real soon.

slack time.

2010-03-14T18:14:00.002+08:00

back for 1 last spec course.
suddenly dont feel like booking in so early in the evening.
seriously.
this is like the pre-quel of my army life.
dont seem good.

freedom is really precious.
yes.
wadever.
off to bathe.

2010-03-06T21:31:00.001+08:00

i swear.
no show ever made me drop a single tear.
not even 1.
not even 1 liter of tears.
mayb is cos i never watch finish.

but wow.
amazing.
and still so many episodes to watch.
god damn it.
y it gets more and more sad.

show marathon.
=)

2010-03-02T12:23:00.001+08:00

I CAN SMELL FREEDOM !!

2010-03-01T01:53:00.003+08:00

is that the truth?
is that really the truth?

i dont know.

2010-02-22T02:33:00.002+08:00

song spree once again.
chinese and english songs mixed.

weekends over.
time for serious business.
although exam timing rly suck,
wads the choice.

control my temptation.
focus my concentration.
ace my examination.

HUAT AH.

2010-02-19T14:17:00.003+08:00

ever got that feeling of not wanting to leave your house.
even when theres something impt for u to do?

well thats wads happening now.
home is always most comfortable.
MAYB.

just dont feel like getting out of house.

song listening to: Gotta tell you, Samantha Mumba

2010-02-12T20:52:00.002+08:00

3 years.
2007-2010
passed just like that.
in another 2 wks of study break + wadever u can call it.
we are DONE.
no more exams in SP.

but for now,
its UNOFFICIAL END OF SCH. =)
nahh not getting sentimental over SP.
in fact, SP dont look like somewhere u can really study.
once u step in, the mood of study disappear.
its all play and pranks.
and tats how u live poly.
xD

VIVA(FYP final presentation) down, in a weird fashion.
hope for the best =)
and back to hit the books real soon.
after my CNY festive mood.

wads the 1 thing i will miss bout SP?
the library.
where can u find so many cd albums to borrow for FREE ?
yeaps tats the only good point.
SO FAR.

going out soon.
happy new yr.
shall keep tweeting for the fun of it.
twitter is addictive u know.
lol.
dont think will update here quite soon.
in fact, sooner or later,
blogger will be overtaken by twitter.
how cool is tat.

2010-01-24T20:55:00.003+08:00

back from my cousin wedding.
my same age cousin wedding.
how fast is tat lol.

bus-ed back to msia.
and yea no drive in. z.z
for the first few hours can rly say v.unbearable.
cos v.v.sian.
subsequently better =)
eat the whole saturday night.
the food is like free flow at my aunt hse.
just take only.
200+ otah in front of me.
how to not take.
and stared at the com in the house.
played dota with my cousin.
yea wtf.
thrashed msia players.
wadever.
looked at my cousin photo album.
1 word.
WOW.
den close to midnight attempted to sing.
LOL.
yes sing.
my dono-how-to-link de relative pass the mic to me.
it was 童话.
sing at the living room.
where the whole bloody house can hear me.
including
those aunties playing mahjong,
the ppl sleeping inside room,
the group of sisters of my cousin inside her room,
and basically everyone.
lol.
sing a few lines my cousin shocked.
run out to see who singing.
LOL.
dont sing doesnt mean dono how to sing.
all i can say is.
i tink i only know how to sing tat song best.
=)

move on move on.
sunday.
early morning dono how many ppl come.
the groom supposed to come at 0830.
before that my aunt husband side relative come.
i dono how many la.
uncountable.
any empty walls in the main living room and 2nd living room are gone.
all blocked by ppl standing.
imagine how many ppl.
groom come,
the fun begins.
starting when they come must 放炮 ma.
den me and my another cousin go light.
den must siam ma.
a few sec only.
no time to run.
we run in, the thing BOOM.
its freaking long lor.
but den it just explode altogether.
2 sec i tink?
everything finished.
FAIL!
the groom de group sit down outside the door dono do wad also.
for 15 min its wtf quiet.
FAIL x2!
fun starts at 0845.
i just stand behind there watch tats all.
i remember got 1 challenge.
is got 5 hard boiled eggs.
must mouth-to-mouth from 1 guy to the last guy.
the groom and all just swallow the entire egg,
den like just slide the egg to the nxt mouth.
its like vomit the egg to another mouth.
den the last guy all i can say is.
SUAY LA.
when u see that video,
i bet u will never want to eat.
lol.

whole thing lasted until 0945?
1 whole hour of "fun"
den the drink tea ceremony.
my aunt side only got my family there.
the rest all another side de.
FAIL x3.
wth happened to the rest.
den i dono out of nowhere got the junior greet the couple.
THEY NEVER PREPARE HONGBAO GIVE US.
FAIL x4 x5 x100.
but still i got it =)
out of nowhere.
see the part where parents talk to the just-married couple.
touching scene sia.
my aunt and cousin never even say anything.
start to tear.
the bond of mother-daughter.
=)

wedding "dinner" started at 1pm.
yes its lunch.
mom say its their custom.
wtf.
throughout the whole 2 hrs there,
the only water i drink.
is carlsberg.
drink and drink.
drink half my cousin pour until full again.
i drink 1/4 the waitress pour again.
got the advertisement on TIGER beer.
虎杯长满
this 1 also seems like it.
so yeap.
lunch + dinner covered at 1 go.
yea the egg video rite.
shown halfway when i was eating.
almost puke all the food i ate.

yea i shld start to learn singing hokkien song.
LOL

and yea my younger cousin de gf rly pretty sia.
he pro la.
LOL.

and yes .
i forgot to mention tat wedding lunch emcee.
fuker.
跟你们开一个小小的玩笑
knn chao ah gua.
i hear his voice
i wan beat him up sia.
irritating to the max.

okay show time.

2010-01-18T01:38:00.001+08:00

so shld i drive up malaysia?
nxt wk ?
for my cousin wedding?

shld or not ?
fuk 1 month nv touch the wheels.

slp.

2010-01-06T17:17:00.003+08:00

taking out a bit of a time.
just to give myself something to aim for this yr.

NEW YR RESOLUTION
1. successfully get my DARE diploma by May.
2. fuking get a diving license.
3. clear my napha asap.
4. make my bank account at least 2k at the end of the year.
5. OCS.
6. get my EPL on mio tv.
7. travelling to at least 2 unfamiliar countries.
8. get a job after end of poly.

yea tat shld be all.
back to work.

edited//
just browsed through my NYR2009.
(new yr resolution)
wow i cleared most of them.
left 1 bicycle. =.=

wadever.

2010-01-04T02:38:00.002+08:00

lol die.
i am really addicted to 海派甜心。
this is real bad.
reached episode 9 alrd.
i got 1 more to watch.
wtf.
die la how.

going to slp.
yea holidays well spent.
well sort of.
yea shall update nxt time.
and lol think my new yr resolution will end up with 1 only for this yr.
mayb.
nxt time den say.
lol.

bye.

2009-12-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

feel like doing such a quiz.
keep track of wad i did.
cos i know.
2009 is rly life-changing for me.
some way or another.

I confess that in 2009, I have...

(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else’s heart
( ) had a stalker
(X) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(X) had a good relationship with someone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(X) done something you’ve regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x ) posted a blog
(x ) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x ) went to a sleepover
(x ) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x ) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
(x ) cut in a line of waiting people
(X) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
(x ) partied to celebrate the new year
(x ) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…
(X) broke a promise
(X) lied
(x ) went behind your parents back
( ) cried over a broken heart
(X) disappointed someone close
(X) hid a secret
(X) pretended to be happy
() slept under the stars
(x) kept your new years resolution
(X) forgot your new years resolution
( ) met someone who changed your life
( ) met one of your idols
(X) changed your outlook on life
(X) sat home all day doing nothing
(x ) pretended to be sick
(x ) left the country
(x ) almost died
( ) given up something important to you
( ) lost something expensive
(X) learned something new about yourself
(X) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x ) made a change in your life
(x ) found out who your true friends were
(X) met great people
(X) stayed up til sunrise
( ) cried over the silliest thing
(x ) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(X) had friends who were drifting away from you
( ) had someone close to you die
() had a high cell phone bill
(X) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your bf/gf
(X) saw a celebrity
(X) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x ) became closer with a lot of people

woot.
interesting.
yea and now still enjoying taylor swift's Untouchable.
nice song.

later aint gonna be a boring day.
i gonna buy formal shirt (FYP =.=)
i gonna,......
i also forgot.
think tats all.
oh ya.
watch hi my sweetheart.
LOL
nv watch finish not happy ah.
shldnt have watched the next episode preview.
sort of anticipated the nxt episode de happening.
yea i knew it.
once i start,
i never stop.

yea wadever.
continue with my music listening.
shall blog again later before 2009 ends =)
thank you 2009 =)

2009-12-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

back after outing.
been long since i left any posts here.
feel so dead.

unknowingly this blog is 420th-post old.
lol.
anyway,
past few weeks was fun for me.
ignoring the fact tat i need to survive with the lowest $$ of my life.

just imagine $20.
for 1 week.
need to cover transport.
need to cover food.
transport to sch confirm exceed $10.
eat?
den other stuff?
luckily all of tat passed.
come to think of it.
i tink i spent quite a lot on the bloody driving license.

still its worth it =)
1st time pass.
18 points.
fuk wadever mistakes i made during the test.
as long i got my license.
everything will be different. =)

after all the under the sun activities.
my whole body.
can say is burning.
end of 2009 is coming.
all i can say is.
this yr is quite a good year eh.
my life just keeps getting better and better ah.
shall return to normal lessons in 2 weeks time.
its been like 2 months for me since i stepped into a lecture.
all thanks to diving and test and holidays.
just hoped holidays never ends.
=)

dont even know if i got time to leave a post on new yr anot.
going off to genting on new yr day.
the new yr resolution.
i tink i cleared quite a number of it =)

time to rest.

2009-12-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

its been real long.
suddenly realised i shld record down wad i did for the past 2 wks.
at least i wont forget it in the future.
after going for such a course.

day 1. 20th nov 09, friday.
freaking theory day.
from morning to evening.
missed everything.
damn it.

day 2. 23rd nov 09, monday.
booked in early on sunday night.
sleeping at NDU camp not bad la.
at least the wind is damn strong.
first day i remembered.
we sort out our equipment.
quite a lot.
and went for pool orientation.
carry all those cylinders into the water is no fun.
and yes theres theory test.
didnt know just to dive so much theory behind it.
and there was IWP.
which simply means i have to use the fins.
and hands up above the water.
keep finning to keep myself afloat.
hands and head above water.
for 5 min ??
yea my finning sucks.

day 3. 24th nov 09, tuesday.
learnt pool dive emergency drills.
lasted quite long.
buddy breathing, diver surface drill(forgot the name) and companion diving.
lol i seriously suck at companion diving.
need to try 3 times to finally carry my buddy up to surface.
keep kicking into his fins.
and IWP again.
this time with 2 weights around my waist.
1 weight = 2 pounds.
fin 5 min.
i already struggling.
still managed to pass.
there was ditch and don drill as well.
all at 4 meter pool.
throwing all my equipment in the water.
den wear back on.
not bad la.

day 3, 25th nov 2009, wed
almost can say.
its damn boring day.
i dono wad i completed also.
got dive medical test.
and learning pool competency.
3 stages.
from easy to hard.
wads tat is basically.
how u react and wear back your equipment.
when someone attack you underwater.
keywords are.
DONT PANIC.
paid off.
stage 1.
never close cylinder valve.
pull mask and mouthpiece.
take out 1 strip.
shake a bit.
ok la easy.
lol.
stage 2.
nothing much.
just tat close cylinder valve.
take out 2 strip.
and yes need to endure at least 40 sec or 50 sec underwater without breath.
just to get it fixed.
almost vomitted my lunch out.

day 5, 26th nov 09, thurs
busiest day of the training so far.
cleared a lot of stuff.
first was free ascent.
with 1 breath,
from bottom of the 6meter pool.
1 breath come out to surface.
cannot go up fast,
cannot go up slow.
too fast, burst lung.
too slow, no breath.
can la still manageable.
then came IWP again.
4 weights, 4 min.
almost died inside the water.
my finnings really suck big time.
when i thought nightmare over,
then comes pool competency stage 3.
same stuff as stage 1 and 2.
just tat now with a buddy.
need to do a total of 4 times.
which means attacker attack you 4 times.
spend over 40 min underwater at 4 meter.
when i tot can finally rest,
there comes 6 weights IWP.
tat 1 really killer.
3 min.
some ppl really power.
can sing song and keeping afloat.
me?
1st min can.
2nd to 3rd min keep using hand to keep myself afloat.
warrant keep shouting.
when time to inflate the BC (some buoyancy aid)
i almost no breath to breathe it into it.
drank so much water.
come up leg almost cramp.
giddy.
eye pain until cannot open.
so with tat,
book out in the evening.
HENG got hari raya haji.

day 6, 30th nov 09, monday.
by then alrd quite tired.
sleep time not a lot.
whole day didnt do a lot.
just completed IWP.
with cylinder, keep afloat for 1 min.
almost everyone say easy.
but i struggled.
finning sucks bo bian.
come up leg gave way.
but i think tats almost about it.
didnt do much for tat day already.
a lot of ppl keep taking retest.
only managed to learn water entry after tat.
at night.
those always see in movies.
how ppl enter water by going backwards into water.
quite ok la.
lol.

day 7, 1st dec 09, tues
went for 10 meter dive if not wrong.
if not is at day 6 alrd.
its the same stuff as E drill.
just tat only need to do ballast and buoyancy.
blow some air first.
den after tat swim up with ur buddy.
try to lift him up to surface.
so much easier with air inside BC.
and lifeline signal v.lol sia.
communicate with ppl up at surface.
with pulls and bells.
after tat was sea dive in the afternoon.
lol sia.
see the water condition.
really sucks.
wear the wetsuit rly helps a lot.
starting go inside water,
totally is YELLOW.
cannot see clearly 1.
freaking dirty.
den with buddy need finish 1 round around the circuit in the sea.
follow the rope to dono where.
going deeper = become darker.
think we reached depth of 9 meter?
ok la quite smooth.
nv go wrong way.

then comes NIGHT DIVE.
the most interesting dive.
by evening everyone alrd sick of the water.
yellow, cannot see.
at night, confirm is dark until cannot see anything 1.
somemore need to follow buddy.
started dive at 2200hrs.
damn funny.
before me and my new buddy dive.
we saw almost every group either go wrong way.
or stuck together at 1 spot.
lol.
when our turn,
damn lol alrd.
once enter water.
my buddy just keep following the guide rope.
at the same time, TOTALLY CANNOT SEE.
with the light stick, can only see a bit.
need to go like 5-10cm in front of ur eyes just to see wads the rough thing we touched.
den i just followed him.
getting darker and darker.
until totally dark.
dono where we going alrd.
suddenly my buddy knock someone head on.
another grp.
that grp point straight at my buddy eyes.
tell him the other way.
i follow him ma,
so i dono suddenly turn how many rounds on the spot.
den duno face wad direction, i followed on.
going halfway, he turn to face me.
he point towards 1 direction,
i point towards tat direction also.
think i point wrong la.
den he turn around, continue in that direction.
den knock into someone again.
THE SAME GROUP.
lol this time totally messed up liao.
surfaced up to surface.
den got sent back by lifeboat.
lol.
went up and asked buddy wad the hell happen.
and i tink we went the wrong way again and again.
den he ask me go straight by pointing,
i point at the other direction instead.
lol.
how to even poiint or see when everything is dark.
night dive ended lousily.
i totally headache.
think dehydrated.
i dou straight after debrief.
everyone else had to help move stuff back.
by then, when finished, it was 1am.
fuk.

day 8, 2nd dec 09, wed.
fuk damn freaking tired.
woke up at 430am.
just to go lower seaboat.
all cannot tahan alrd.
sleepy go carry boat.
the NDU divers rly can take it.
rly mad 1.
we tried to carry.
and some ppl rly pissed everyone off.
tats when everyone lost patience towards 1 guy.
tat slacker.
by 0630, our seaboat nv lower.
only the NDU diver trainees boats all lowered.
after eating, all of us wait at our boat.
for instructor.
all rly just sleep.
on the anchor, on the floor, at the side of the boat, roll into 1 ball and sleep.
rly is sleep anywhere, anyhow.
until 730am, instructor tell us y we nv lower.
and sort of give up telling us to lower.
we late for sea circuit briefing anyway.
chiong to the briefing point.
everyone, including the recent NDU diver trainee also 1st time doing sea circuit.
they train everyday for this day la.
we never.
rly is f up.
whole circuit goes like this.
starting is swim to the rope with fins.
climb the rope with fins on.
den walk across balance beam.
go jump off from 5m tower.
den swim dono how goddamn long to the shore.
den run back to starting line.
tats 1 lap.
need go 3 laps.
timing for those NSF.
18 min.
they no 1 reach tat timing.
closest was 18min 55 sec.
den our NCC turn,
rly lol.
for me, i starting ok 1.
rope still can climb.
amazed.
den 1st lap, 8 min.
2nd lap, i stuck at the rope awhile.
tired alrd.
jump off the 5m tower never rly think alrd.
damn tired.
finished 2nd lap and timing was alrd 18 min.
3rd lap, totally cmi.
i stuck at rope.
like forever.
rly no strength to climb on.
even wadever i was thinking at tat point of time.
i cannot climb up.
swam up a boat and carry on from there.
jump the bloody 5m tower.
almost sprained my leg when entered water.
by the time i finished my laps.
i tink 40 min++ ???
tired to the max alrd.
no sleep + all these.
den after tat morning.
FINALLY FINISHED.
no more dive.
booked out at afternoon go dining-in.
damn tired liao still need to travel down to sispec.
go there changed to no.2 uniform.
den go inside some military dinner.
lol.
pictures all other ppl take.
ohh ya saw weixing there.
he just outside at the parade square practising his ASLC passing out parade.
lol.
i inside eat dinner, he outside parade.
all these finished arnd 1020.
alrd know late liao.
so chiong back to NDU.
at 11pm, tio stunned.
my coursemates all hands down position.
waiting for us for 30 min.
tmd not our problem also.
is tat awol person caused it.
but just nice me and my 2 frens also late.
so our fault also.
=.=
tio fuked by tat DI.
went to bed at arnd 11+.
almost 20+ hours of non-stop action.
=.=

day 9, 3rd dec 09, thurs.
rehearsal for camp pinnacle performance only.
boring day.
just tat i hate being emcee.

day 10, 4th dec 09, fri.
graduation ceremony.
wtf.
cock up big time.
i became the emcee again.
need give speech.
den my speech is immediately after the performance.
everyone was still changing.
i was supposed to delay time for them.
den after 4 min, i finished my speech.
ALL HAVENT FINISH.
all the guest of honours all look at me, i look at them.
course warrant tell me waste more time.
LOL.
talk nonsense.
i sense everyone know wad i was doing.
i totally dono wad i talking also.
until everyone finally finished.
lol.
tio F big time.
but still got the badge in the end.
=)
all the settling and stuff.
finally out of camp at 5+.
END OF BASIC DIVING COURSE 2009 !

went down to town area straight.
go slack arnd, before finally go to yellow jello.
is tat how its spelled?
with all my bags.
best night spent after 2 wks of course.
lol.
2 wks later back there again! =)
better pass my driving test by then.
if not, big loss.

tiring day.
today went down to dono wad seminar lai de.
learn some muay thai thing.
interesting leh. =)

ok time for revision.
test coming.
+ fyp completion.
+ driving test coming.
+ checkup coming.
+ alot of stuff coming.
busy ending of 2009.
not bad not bad =)

2009-11-22T02:33:00.000+08:00

ON H.I.A.T.U.S

2009-11-15T12:14:00.003+08:00

SMAE day just passed on friday.
and yes unknowingly i went for all 3 years of the celebration.
lol.

performance every year like the same 1.
only thing is the audience.
1st yr.
the senior siao 1.
make emcee cry.
throw things at teachers.
ignore calls from emcee.

2nd yr.
the same old crowd.
just that emcee can endure.
+ not tat rough alrd.
no light sticks for us to throw.
only papers.

3rd yr.
not a lot of rowdy acts.
but liddat no fun alrd.
lol.

in conclusion,
MM/SMAE day is a day.
where participants face the ugly reality.
the taunting of the engineering ppl.
no wonder every yr participants are new.
no 1 dare to participate twice.
imagine u go up stage,
ppl all kpkb at the audience.
u wan to perform in front of them again meh.

but still.
its fun.
LOL.
yes its the time to release all ur fustration to the ppl on stage.
sounds bad?
i havent reach tat level yet.
mayb not at the level to the ppl 2 yrs ago.
=)

went to send wk off ytd.
its more like a supper session.
whole lot of us go mac to eat.
keep "investing" in stickers.
wk la.
buy more den got higher chance of winning.
dono in the end how many meals we bought.
and knn all the same place 1.
no laptop.
LOL

in the midst of report.
and diving course in 5 days time.
clear clear clear.

2009-11-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

been long since i am here.
and yet dont feel like typing.

shld be sleeping now.
tmr 4+ need wake up.
my 1st official 10km run.
lol.
y so excited abt.
never rly completed 10km without stopping before.
lol

forget it.
listen finish 1 song album.
off to hit the bed.

2009-10-29T00:59:00.002+08:00

~~CONFIDENTIAL.~~

few months of freedom rly make me adapt fast.
how cool is tat.
lol.

2009-10-20T00:55:00.002+08:00

lol.
my tight schedule.
begins now.

FYP chionging - from now onwards
NB real run - 8 nov
driving prac - until dec 18
and from nov 20 - dec 4 -> Basic Diving Course
and after tat 7 - 11 dec MST.
den after tat TP - dec 18
den medical checkup.
den this yr finish.
WTF. -.-

serious shyt.
y is everything so closely packed?
wtf.
den on top of everything.
MY NORMAL LESSONS.

A.M.A.Z.I.N.G
2009 dont end so fast ty.

2009-10-14T03:20:00.002+08:00

beer-ed.
cabbed.
and yea.
facebooked.
wad else to do ?

sleep.
driving tmr.
serious lack of sleep on wkdays.
wkends seem to be my 2 days of good night sleep.
provided i dont drink tat is.
lol.

time for sleep.
after i get my songs.
my fetish for chinese songs are coming back.
damn.

2009-10-08T02:27:00.003+08:00

a ultimate great blunder tday.
imagine going to someone house.
with a cake.
and wanting to wish him happy bday.
turned out it WASNT his bday YET.
and we still got the wrong number of candles.
amazing.
lol.

at least now i know the date alrd.
no more mistake from now on.

tomorrow still got proj.
shall slp.
having a lot of slping discomfort nowadays.
dono y.
mayb is due to this stupid laptop in my room.
the radiation perhaps.
computer radiation poisoning soon liao la.

up my song list.
up up up up up up .
drink?
or dont.
weekends hurry up come.
my driving + slacking session.

feel like going on a holiday on my bday.
+ jason having block leave.
but seems like nobody wants.
-.-
24th oct.
i don wanna spend it alone at home.
AGAIN.
yes boring la.
at most i go watch movie alone lo.
at least theres sth to do.

bye for now.

2009-09-24T00:09:00.003+08:00

its been long.
lol.
been busy with tons of stuff.

1st.
SSC was a success.
a mini clt cse liddat.
5 district help.
nonetheless great camp.

2nd.
am still busy with sch FYP.
real busy.

3rd.
NCHS NCC POP.
still have to help them out.
hopefully no more repetition like last few yrs.

4th.
I JUST FINISHED REGISTERING NS.
its bloody troublesome.
yes.
ask so many things.
cant NCC just give them my particulars?
z.z

5th.
my whole body ache.
gym nv recover well.
tday went to run again.
lol.
i totally sux at long distance.
need to train up before the NB real run.

6th.
i want to go slp.
yes.
tired la deh.

7th.
and yea.
fish a fish very addictive.
LOL

lazy update le.
bye.

2009-09-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

ssc beginning in 4 days.
and until now.
i still dont feel safe at all.
wads with the weird planning.
wads with the impossible manpower.
wads with everything tats happening.

and the worst is.
after all these troubles.
i have to bear with it.
fucking shyt.
wads with the clt creed tat everyone said.
but never followed.

i am a cadet lieutenant
a member of the national cadet corps
I take pride in my organisation
and will be loyal to those under whom I serve.

I am the present and future of a distinguished Corps
and will honour those that have passed before me,
and those that are to come.
I will never do anything that will disgrace my uniform
school or country.

It is my duty to maintain my discipline
and those of the Corps.
I am committed to the values of the Corps.
I will uphold the responsibilities bestowed upon me
to the best of my abilities.

I strive to be the best that I can be
and to lead the Cadets in the acquisition of knowledge and skills.
I will persevere so that I can make a difference to those I lead
and maintain the faith by caring my cadets. I am proud of the Corps
and my country and will try to make the people of this nation
proud of the service I represent.

all these stand for nothing now.
crap.
and i am still here complaining.
time to study for the test tomorrow.

2009-08-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

to think i am betrayed by my own district.
yes.
shan't elaborate.
i just gonna give up.

2009-08-27T23:46:00.001+08:00

i seriously.
feel.
STRESSED.

y do i keep getting myself involved.
one of these days.
i want it all settled.
yes ALL.

thats all.
study.

2009-08-15T01:08:00.003+08:00

seriously.
I THINK I KNOW HOW I GOT TAT VIRUS.
after so many trials.
yes.
i see the scan results.
i think its cos of myself.

y i even go install frostwire in the first place.
none of this could have happened if i didnt do tat.
z.z
seriously.
cos i realised.
ever since after i dl thing from there.
my com got error.
+ i notice all my files outside MY DOCUMENTS.
they WERENT affected.
i took a gamble.
and i THINK i am right.

a few more days of observation.
if everything is smooth.
its back to the old format my com is in.
just without frostwire.
this is a lesson learnt.

NEVER DOWNLOAD.

2009-08-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

a safe journey home becomes a nightmare.

i swear.
i wont learn skating anymore.
at least not skate when i dono how.
fuk.
just go down 2 slopes on the way home
i fall 2 times.
and hand superficial cut.
-.-

lucky my ankle strong.
lol.

2009-08-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

ohhh yes finally can see the box.

feel kind of fed up with blogger already.
shall start posting on livejournal v.soon.
damn fed up of INTERNET nowadays.
cos its simply BORING.

where is my good night rest.
1st it was project.
den it was dota.
den now i dono wad.
i need to start on so many fuking things.

1. FINISH WADEVER ASSIGNMENT TO BE HANDED IN.
2. STUDY.
3. CONTINUE MY DRIVING PRAC.
4. FINISH FYP.
5. FUKING GET A LIFE.

tmr elective module roleplay.
i swear.
eating at a restaurant is fuking irritating.
yes. especially after this module.
everything u wan to know.
i know.
and fuking troublesome.
z.z

tomorrow.
1 MORE DAY.
3 DAY BREAK.
HUAT AH.
regular math torture from 3-5 tmr.
blame it on the math.
blame it on the day.
blame it on the theory.
blame everything.
ahh FUK la.
hurry 3 more wks to holidays.
lol.

2009-08-04T22:35:00.001+08:00

knn i swear i type damn long.
blogger just dont accept.
knn pcb.

was having my presentations today.
2 at 1 go.
its real disaster when u dont rehearse at all before presenting.
thankfully its OVER.
and i realise.
never to borrow a tight pants from frens and wear them for presentation.
rly will kill you.

came home and find some old power ranger film.
youtube is the best.
lol .
the 1st edition power rangers.
realised that its rly familiar.
and got this deja vu tat i watched this.
mayb is cos last time watch too many episodes alrd.
imagine u watch every sunday morning, 9am.
those kind of use tape and record 1.
power leh.
childhood memories.
i dare admit last time i have the power rangers movie tape also lor.
LOL.
think i still have it.
=)

yes last time de power rangers still appeal a bit to me.
hahahah.

back to script writing.
need to write more for roleplay.
i seriously not good in writing scripts.

2009-08-02T11:07:00.000+08:00

supposed to be doing powerpoint.
shall carry on soon.
feel like dozing off everytime i start to do work more than 1 hour.

went for 1st driving prac unknowingly ytd.
imagine waking up early at 10am.
den 1015 the instructor call u.
ask u if 1130 on tat same day is ok.
so unknowingly, said ok, went down and tada.
1st time behind steering wheel.

until now, i didnt realise.
if u dont step on the accelerator,
but just on the clutch,
U CAN MOVE THE CAR A BIT.
i seriously didnt realise.
and yes.
accelerator sux.
so fuking sensitive for wad.
z.z

enough complaining for now.
back to my work.
and blogger seriously cmi.
shall switch to livejournal someday.

taken accidentally last time =)

2009-07-30T00:03:00.001+08:00

2009-07-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

post number 400.
and still NO POSTING OF PICTURES.
got damn it.

been to national stadium ytd.
yeap singapore vs liverpool.
feel kinda bad sia.
its like home game for singapore.
but in the end the atmosphere doesnt seem like it.
its more like liverpool homeground.
everyone is just supporting liverpool.
other ppl out ther are just saying.
DISGRACE. WATCH OTHER PPL THRASH LOCAL TEAM ALSO V.HAPPY.
but seriously.
DO I CARE? =)

ytd was like mini national day.
inside the stadium EVERYWHERE WAS RED.
only liverpool team wore black.
and yeap watched the match there.
this really gave me a v.bright idea.
one of these days i will visit england.
and enter anfield stadium for 1 time.
just 1 time.
and watch 1 of the epl match.
feel the real atmosphere.
=)

a 400th post on liverpool.
not bad.
back to studies.
think i have something i have to finish.
and before i end.
GOD DAMN BLOGGER.
CANT POST PIC.

2009-07-26T13:07:00.000+08:00

god damn blogger.
i cant even upload pic or something.
or is it my com ?

have been unbearable with the existing virus in my com.
load something also v.hard.
com showing signs of retardness.
time to really get a home pc.

yea think i am wasting my PDL license.
until now havent even call the driving instructor.
after 3 fuking attempts finally got tat PDL.
havent even apply for my FTT.
3rd yr rly no time.
project + assignment + ppt.
they rly save the best for the last.

besides that.
any kind soul can help me find this song tats currently playing here?
seriously cant find.

liverpool vs singapore match later on.
been spending alot of $$ on stuffs.
seriously.
fucking charles.
nbpcb borrowed $$ for 2 yrs alrd.
call him dowan pick up.
think i some kind of charity?
from monday onwards will fuking hunt him down in sch.
thinking of calling his mom and ask for the $$.
seriously fed up of his fuked up attitude.

shant elaborate.
later i rly do something drastic to his life.
time to put on the jersey =)

2009-07-14T23:08:00.004+08:00

been hell of a week last week.
helped out the final days of AYG.
been to the closing ceremony.
as usual doing duty.
all these for no apparent clear reason.

seriously retarded friday.
went to the indoor stadium to collect something for volunteers.
den theres this concert or performance for the volunteers.
we tot ok since it looks good.
went in.
and guess wad.

just after an hour or so,
feel damn weird.
imagine a volunteer group consisting of all races.
and a thanking concert of a chinese singer.
sing all chinese songs.
a bit weird rite.
i totally have no idea whose idea was this.
although i do understand,
but still went out halfway.
feel weird staying inside.
after tat just to realise a lot of ppl exited as well.
wad a wrong day.

my song collection is starting hot.
discovered my sch library got a lot of cds.
even have discs like lady gaga- the fame.
how cool can it get.
shall use tat to put a stop to dl sensation.
1 of these days i tink i will get caught if i continue.
okay now 1367 songs.
1100 songs behind my sis collection.
lol.
think there are more albums coming up alrd.
prepare prepare. =)

back to work.
bloody MD retest.

2009-07-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

woah imba shyt.
edit the blog stuff can edit for so long.
sick and tired of finding pattern pattern skins.
switched to something that looks nicer.
and neater.
lol.

no mood post old stuff.
mayb nxt time.

2009-07-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

AYG ENDED.
CONSIDERED A SUCCESS.

although tv coverage of the games suck.
helpers all a bit blur dono do wad.
singapore athletes some of them are just too proud.
it was quite messy.
but in all.
ITS FINALLY OVER.

back to studies.

2009-07-03T00:35:00.002+08:00

test period finally finished.
yes and it ended with a bang.
damn loud bang.

studied for the wrong topic for the morning.
a no nid to study module i go study.
wtf.
took 3 hrs memorise powerplant 2.
and test still so hard.
wrote tons of formula on the paper for maths test.
go in i tink i just relied on the paper completely.
even if the formula dont make sense.
lol.
and WOOLA ~
FINISH.

tmr AYG again.
and i still here.
the morning shift like fake liddat.
OH FUK I FORGOT.
do my lab report.

2009-06-26T11:26:00.002+08:00

ytd was transformers day.
lol.
went to watch it at amk hub.
and of cos 1st time get tickets thru booking.
didnt realise dbs debit card can be used to book.
all i can see ytd was the whole row of theatre all showing.
TRANSFORMERS.
and its seriously all.
1 to 8.
all showing the same title outside.

and yes its rly nice.
2.5hrs of enjoyment.
how long has it been since i rly enjoyed movies..

back to my assignments.
and revision.
damn it sp no break.

2009-06-23T23:37:00.004+08:00

this is the movie i really look forward to.
the book is seriously nice.
hopefully movie is too.

AYG stuff.
lets just say its still ok.
as always chit chat with sec sch ppl.
makes me younger day by day LOL.
slept at swissotel.
if only the bed is wad i have at home.
i wont mind sleeping on it all the way.
and i dono y i become such a good person today.
do duty halfway go marks and spencer buy pastilles.
den whoever come do duty with me get to eat.
they seriously lucky.
i dono y i buy also.
sudden hunger for spending some $$ i guess.
and yes.
I NEVER SHOP FOR TAT 2 DAYS.
GSS seriously wasted.

camp cancelled.
am still hoping for MST to be cancelled.
LOL
pray harder.
from now to 28th june
NO DUTY.
SONG BO.
with that.
cya nxt post.

2009-06-21T00:40:00.002+08:00

one whole day at swissotel.
is wad i can say interesting.

morning damn boring shyt.
nobody telling me do wad.
no clear instructions.
and 2 ppl nv come to report.
its like no break for me and noorfitri.
luckily got those sec sch kids to chat.
feels young talking to them LOL.

afternoon shift ppl also same.
all damn weird 1.
damn on.
tell them go home dowan.
stay arnd say wan help.
den tat "old man" the sec sch ppl call him.
just told them dont come back if not needed.
tats the diff btwn sec sch and IHL ppl.
we are treated like adults.
they like kids.
too bad la.
i dont recall myself being so vocal or active in public when i sec 3.
they considered super frenly alrd.

few more shifts to go.
like 8 ?
LOL
nvm la dont mind helping.
food there is not bad =)
now only 9 teams soccer players.
imagine all 45 NOCs all athletes come.
how chaotic the whole hotel will be.
dont need take lift already.
just take stairs will do.
and with that.
SLP TIME.

2009-06-19T21:56:00.001+08:00

i am seriously tired.
and my leg is fuked up.

cant withstand 1 hour of standing.
and tomorrow is a bloody full shift in swissotel.
monday theres 1 more.
and tues morning is another shift.
i must be mad.
luckily am allowed to stay at swissotel =)

going to slp.
and dont remind me of tests to study.
cos rite now.
i rly have no mood.

2009-06-17T04:42:00.002+08:00

listening to a chinese song.
its old alrd and i just found out theres such a song.
thanks to hr car.
not bad leh.

and wtf or.
now wad time alrd i still not slping.
later got sch somemore.
z.z

2009-06-15T00:40:00.001+08:00

although i did learn how to skate.
it came with a price.
heard my leg crack 3 times before falling.
how good is tat.
how i even fall in the first place i also dono.
all i know is fall alrd sit down on the floor dono how to stand up.

until now still damn pain.
and god damn torrent file cannot work.
wtf is wrong.
i wan watch harpers island.
missed 2 epi liao.
z.z

and how i go to swissotel tomorrow ?
with the limping.
z.z
y of all days.
today i sprain.
z.z

2009-06-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

back from a mad camp.
lol.

how mad can it be.
damn mad.
a camp of 29 sch.
a camp of easy s1.
a camp of playing.
and of cos movie.
damn lol.

fun times with azmi and fareez.
playing with their coy ppl.
and go disturb ppl.
s1 seriously too free.
until the last min.
still quite free.
hahah
saw that @#*@$#$ do stupid things again.
dont rly care bout tat.

one fine tuesday nite.
book out with 7 ppl.
go jurong point watch show.
and guess wad.
8 guys.
watch hannah montana.
wtf or.
although show nt bad,
but 8 guys watch tat ?
a bit lol.
got to see the other side of ppl.
hahahah.

lets just take a step and continue to watch.
wad drama it has become.
i want to see show.
if u know wad i mean =)

time to slp.
after hearing so many ghost stories of so many places just now.
so weird when i do admin till nxt morning so many times.
i nv encounter.
weird.

2009-06-03T19:50:00.002+08:00

and i dont feel good at all now.
seriously not good.
all comes down to this.
FLU.

basic diving course 1st selection test passed.
and yea i still tio stunned when jumping from the 5metre platform.
i still can rmb.
i starting is close eyes den step 1 step forward.
den after tat halfway while dropping i open my eyes.
i suddenly *OHH* call out v.softly.
and into the water.
knn shldnt have open my eyes la.
go down wrongly my chest area there hurts.
apart from that,
200m breaststroke and 25m underwater swim is easy.
shall continue go swim and swim.

now is scared bout the 2nd selection test.
medical checkup.
especially tat chamber test.
looking at the situation of my ear now,
i scared alrd.
mayb its just flu.
but my ears are sort of clogged up.
z.z
until then,
PLEASE MAN LET ME ENTER THE COURSE.

sick man going eat dinner.
headache coming back.

2009-05-31T21:33:00.002+08:00

1 more week to my holidays !
well not rly holidays but yea holidays.

been hell of a wk last wk.
and yea this coming wk.
its nv better.
all assignments hand in first before holiday.
and its like quite a lot.

watched 2 movies over the weekend.
conspiracy and terminator.
seriously.
nxt time wan watch show cannot last min.
everytime sit first 4 rows.
neck will seriously break.

and yea.
sb bday on saturday.
clashed with wx celebration.
z.z
initially went to eat at some steamboat restaurant.
eat too long.
in the end cant make it.
and of cos peer pressure.
lol
3 cars of ppl.
15 ppl in a restaurant eating.
whole floor to us.
listen to wedding music ?? LOL
how nice is tat.

met up arian at cathay.
its 12.
and they buy show tickets.
-.-
whole row of us watching.
at 2nd row from the front.
z.z
grand cathay somemore.

ohhh yea.
darren car damn nice to slp.
family car = 3 rows.
i took the back row to myself to slp flat.
all the way back home =)
and to think late nights are good.
have a damn F headache now.
sleep too long.
now still feel tired.
4-12. den 1-3.
and i still feel the lack of energy.
neck hurts like F.

continue with my tutorial.
still waiting ys to send fotos to me.

2009-05-27T21:01:00.003+08:00

should be doing my MD tutorial now.
but ohh well.
u know me =)

and finally singapore kanna h1n1 virus.
but alert level nv change.
ohh well one of these days ~

v.fast.
after nxt wk is holidays.
but like no holiday liddat.
MST.
project.
assignment.
and yea tons of stuff.
year 3 sure go by quite fast.
nxt yr my turn to take cert already =)
IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL.

and still no news on basic diving course.
doesnt look good.
z.z
and yes finally.
i booked my BTT.
and rush like shyt.
went SSDC.
den see queue so long.
call the instructor my sis intro me.
he say go UBI to register.
SSDC cannot.
-.-
go all the way from yck to ubi.
and LUCKY nv register BTT there.
came home find dates to register.
TADAA !
i found 8th June ! =)
ideal man.
chop chop finish BTT den move on.
my new yr resolution of getting a driving a license is coming true =)

and still waiting to persuade my dad to let me buy bicycle.
-.-

homework time.
god damn it.

edited// 2307hrs

knnpcb.
fuck MD seriously.
seriously FUCK.
i is totally mind blank.
TOTALLY.
i dont even know where to fucking start writing.
where to even use wad equations.
den so many different types of words.
HOW THE FUCK U APPLY THEM.
SERIOUSLY FUCK TAT TEACHER WHO TEACH.
TEACH WITH SIMPLE ENGLISH, DEN TUTORIAL COME SAY V.EASY.
i dont fucking know la pls.
ccb.
fuck.
to think theres even a report to hand in next week.
FUCK.

2009-05-23T03:38:00.002+08:00

8 min from orchard to hougang point.
how fast can a cab be.

tink 30 min ago, i was still at scape park.
now i am teeth-brushed, face washed
slacking my time in my blog.
how nice.

NATM 2.
joke movie man.
lOl.
and botak jones was imba.
fries cannot finish 1.

and just hours ago.
still struggling with maths in sch.
chionging my not-due report.
and cabbing down sch at $20.
wad a Friday.

and yes dark circles are forming.
REAL fast.
dota 1 rnd drain my energy 1st den slp.

2009-05-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

i think lack of slp got into the better of me.
my temper is shortening recently.
mayb rly is becos lack of slp.

tomorrow have to go back hq again.
been long.
dont feel like going back there,
but need to settle some admin work.
no choice.

and god damn NEL.
god damn timing.
just when i want rush back SP at 5pm.
train break down at boon keng.
i got stuck at farrer park.
den wander somewhere to take bus.
took some unknown bus just to escape the sardine-packed bus stop.
seriously ah.
i shld have taken the bus all the way down.
at least got 163 to turn.
i go act smart alight when i saw 156.
in the end a 1 hr journey become 2hrs.
i tink when i reach back sk ,
the mrt alrd fixed long long ago.
god damn MRT.
god damn singapore transport.

so that leaves me with something.
SHLD I GO TAKE BIKE LICENCE ?
thinking thinking~~

2009-05-19T00:08:00.002+08:00

busy busy.
just finish my tutorial.
HALF my tutorial.
and tats only like 1/3 tutorials i need to submit tomorrow.
O.O

at least now i know i rly understand more than i usually did last few sem in class.
i rly did pay attention alrd.
if i still cant make it i rly dono alrd.
come to think of it,
someone just told me Degree in mechanical engineering is 3.3gpa arnd there for entry.
mayb i can try ?
i still dono wad my path will be like in the future.
IF lets say i rly cant get my dream job.
lol
wadever la take 1 step at a time.

trying hard to submit my basic diving course application on time.
i hate filling up forms z.z
y cant i sign my own form still.
parents signature parents signature.
it doesnt even matter to me.
makes no difference. (if u get wad i mean =) )

no more dota for today.
its damn bloody late and not enuf slp later.
i seriously need formula to make the pain in my arms stop.
just a continuous 30 min swim my arms bone ache like mad alrd.
too abrasive to the bones i suppose.
z.z

2009-05-14T21:18:00.001+08:00

WOAH NNBPCB.
how the hell to write a intro abt myself for 300 words ?!
how to even write a description bout my vertical measurement for 300 words ?!
how !!
nnbpcb.

AHHHHHH !!!!
600 WORDS ?!
WRITE WAD ?!
WRITE CRAP ?!!!!
WTF !!!
AHHHHH !!!!!
EVERYTHING'S FALLING APART !!
YOU CANT CONTROL ME YOU CANT CONTROL ME !!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2009-05-14T00:06:00.001+08:00

this is seriously one of the most irritating days.
reformat com take so long.
do my tutorial do until i dont even know wad the question wants.
nxt day is the bloody tutorial.
another 4 hr facing the irritating faggot.
i start to think i chose the wrong elective.
z.z

machine dynamics is hopeless.
seriously hopeless.
at least only with this teacher.
who happens to be the only teacher for this module.
just my luck.

2009-05-12T20:53:00.005+08:00

star trek.
is nice.

all the ZOOOMM~
all the PEW PEW ~~
all the clicking of buttons.
nice la nice.
hahah

from the plan of buying a hard drive today.
changed to a movie day.
luckily its star trek.
guss i just have to delay my reformatting of com.
hopefully after tomorrow my com is virus free.
i can feel that my com is INFESTED with virus.
but it jsut wont spoil.
no idea y too.

suspected virus are...
trojanhorse.
keylogger.
IE crash thing.
Autoplay.
and tons of other virus.
dont ask me y.
i just feel it.
it just runs inside my com.
lol.
and amazingly my com survived until now eh.
not anymore.

all my movies.
all my songs.
tomorrow.
wait for tomorrow.
should start packing my com.
tomorrow can reformat faster.
lol

and due to extreme boredom.
took a lame foto in sch.
from a discovery of a lame item.
cool ~

with that, i end my post =)

2009-05-11T21:17:00.002+08:00

its been long eh.
and so long.
i am still bloody sick.
bloody cough.
god damn it.

seriously nowadays nothing to write abt alrd.
everyday life is just going on liddat.
go sch listen lecture, do tutorial, complete practical.
laugh at teachers, talk crap with them, find stuff outside poly to eat.
yea.

nowadays on a movie frenzy.
and show frenzy.
am gonna find nice shows to ******** already.
and of cos.
new hard drive.
ohh yea =)

aiyah forget it.
i go do my work alrd.
my ASPIRED-TO-BE-GOOD-STUDENT comes back again.
=)

2009-05-04T21:22:00.003+08:00

seriously.
getting a flu now is not a correct time.
flu is rly infectious.
think i got my mom flu.
z.z

eyes hurt like shyt now.
just when i want to start doing my work.
now govt tell ppl.
if sick dont take public transport rite?
how ah if i sick tml.
.....

seriously contemplating if i shld go sch tml not.
seriously contemplating.....
shall go rest.

2009-04-30T16:33:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is a LABOUR DAY.
when teachers take a break from seeing us.
and we enjoy the break from not seeing teachers too.
win-win situation.

WOW.
shld i or shld i not???
hmmmmmmm.........

2009-04-26T18:16:00.002+08:00

1 whole week of sch.
i shld say its fun ba.
lol
jsut seems that this sem is harder to pass time.
time pass really v.slow.
rly wonder how i survived the previous sem so easily.
o.o

yr 3 = end of freedom .
lol
almost can say so ba.
tons of things to accomplish.
yes tons.
speaking of which.
TIME TO WORK.

still bloody deciding wad fone to change.
z.z

2009-04-19T16:19:00.003+08:00

my so called holidays are finally over.
FINALLY.
sch is starting like in another 18 hours.
dono its a blessing or wad.

attachment i concluded.
i learnt nothing about the working life.
seriously.
tats the only lousy thing i wanna complain.
z.z

recaps.
nothing much rly happened.
wed nothing much.
only tat sit jor drive de car.
did something silly.
lol

thurs worse.
nothing.

fri.
go sch early in the morning.
wait all the way until 3pm.
called teacher.
just to realise he not in sch.
and that I TOTALLY DONT EVEN NEED TO GO AT ALL.
-.-
went to nchs for anniversary.
parade getting boring year after year.
ever since ryan de parade 4 yrs ago.
every parade has been almost the same.
nothing special de.
atmosphere at the end was like ...
so dead?

saturday,
which is ytd.
just went out eat dinner.
in bugis theres this new shopping centre.
dono wads the name.
went there eat that manhattan fish market.
joke day.
lol
seriously.
i prefer fish and co over fish market.
the fish ah.
woah eating there IS A CHALLENGE.

went over to powerhouse after tat.
instead of leaving arnd 2 like last time,
i stayed all the way to 5.
amazed to find celine there.
kanna caught LOL.
and yea not drunk.
=)

i am starting to aim for a new fone.
what fone good.?
nokia 5800???
or wad ????
any ideas?
feedback leh. ~

gaming time.

2009-04-14T14:44:00.001+08:00

jiang zhen de.
I HATE ITP .
SERIOUSLY HATE ITP.

its finishing soon.
FUK IT WADEVER GRADE I GET I DONT CARE.
JUST GET IT OVER WITH.
FUCKED UP LA.
ITP IN SCH = WASTE OF TIME.

2009-04-12T16:53:00.002+08:00

1 MORE BLOODY WK OF ATTACHMENT.
YES 1 MORE LADIES AND GENTLEMAN.
i waited 6 wks for this.
=)

seriously if u ask me wad i have learnt.
i learnt NOTHING.
seriously NOTHING.
F sp and its ITP system.

sort of enjoyed myself over the past few days.
good friday was ruined by the wrong tickets.
lol.
to make things worse everywhere was full.
NOTHING TO DO.
half the day slacking + on the road.
totally nothing to do.

ok 2 movies down.
dono wad else is there to watch.
might as well just dl and watch.
need harddisk urgently alrd.
space running out.

how cool is tat.
my com got another virus AGAIN.
bloody IE cant open.
lucky firefox still can work.

2009-04-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

hello i am back.

6th wk is finished.
amazingly but true.
but not happy at the start.
nxt wk got things to do.
wad fundraising ah wadever .
i see i also fed up.
need hand in my ITP stuff.
den still got this kind of nonsense.
z.z

ok went help sch unit at the water ski thing.
initially is just to take care of them.
in the end also played with them.
LOL
i not those kind of prodigy la of cos.
1st try of knee boarding i fell.
2nd try went further.
3rd try i went 2 rounds around the place alrd.
LOL
can go more de .
my hands pumped.
so no choice.
and LACK OF TIME.
=)
but its ok.
suddenly boost my interest in water activity.
shall add it into my to be accomplished list in the future.
=)

dont wish to comment on other stuff.
will make me go mad seriously.
u know wad i mean.
just let nature take its course.
if i can help i just help.
tat simple.
anything more than that is considered finding trouble.
trouble will come finding u even if nothing wrong is done.
PERHAPS.

enjoy my quiet time with the music.
enjoy a while den slp.
tomorrow is not a good friday definitely.
i need to get my formulas done.
my draft for plane done asap.
tuesday due date.
this is kinda bad.
REAL bad .

2009-04-04T16:04:00.005+08:00

just 1 day after i post.

i changed my blogskin alrd.

mayb is i finally find time to do it.

its afterall A SATURDAY.

wkends is the only free time.

ok lets countdown.

my ITP ending in 2 wks.

sch starting in 2 wks.

i found my timetable.

back to the freaking packed days.

stress included.

better than nothing i shld say.

today at northland sec.

can say its fun.

and mayb its time for me to plan something.

instead of just slacking around.

and of cos to shut ppl mouth also.

shant say too much.

later kanna again i also sian.

time for my leisure time.

FINALLY.

2009-04-03T21:50:00.003+08:00

1 wk over.
can say it cant be anymore worse.

everything seems to clash.
been rly a bastard leaving my ITP halfway.
nxt wk must stay on finish den take break alrd.
results must pull up.

help out 1 camp.
although did give me some energy for more.
but somehow something is missing.
dunno whats the thing.
mayb is wad happened in hq before.
make me feel weird abt it.
yea pessimistic.
den again.
if i can help i help.
if cannot nvm .
once bitten twice shy.

BLOGSKIN CHANGING SOON.
till then i wont update.
find the red skin irritating day after day.

2009-03-29T22:32:00.002+08:00

a start of a new week.
can foresee this wk to be a busy week.

tomorrow meet to discuss how to build glider.
tues HOPEFULLY build glider.
wed thurs HOPEFULLY if glider done den got CAMP.
den if got camp i still have wed thing on.
if glider nv finish, WED I AM BUSTED.
thurs mayb too.
fri affirmation ceremony.
just go down see see.
saturday event at northland sec.
can say MY WHOLE BLOODY WK OCCUPIED.

my blog seems like quite dead already.
time to change skin quite soon.
mayb after i am free.
=)
cos its quite messy already too.

2009-03-27T14:54:00.002+08:00

can call me noob or wad.
but i just realised taylor swift album lyrics got secret meaning.
LOL.

was listening to the cd today.
looking at the lyrics book.
accidentally saw the weird capital letters everywhere.
went to solve the puzzle.
fearless - LOVED YOU BEFORE I MET YOU
fifteen - I CRIED WHILE RECORDING THIS
love story - SOMEDAY I'LL FIND THIS
hey stephen - LOVE AND THEFT
white horse - ALL I EVER WANTED WAS THE TRUTH
you belong with me - LOVES BLIND SO YOU COULDNT SEE ME
breathe - IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY
tell me why - GUESS I WAS FOOLED BY YOUR SMILE
you're not sorry - SHE CAN HAVE YOU
the way i loved you - WE CANT GO BACK
forever and always - IF YOU PLAY THESE GAMES WE'RE BOTH GOING TO LOSE
the best day - GOD BLESS ANDREA SWIFT
change - YOU MADE THINGS CHANGE FOR ME

took me quite awhile to solve it.
although answers can already be found on the net.
lol.
and yea today is friday.
FRIDAY.
nxt wk 5th wk.
3 more wks to end of ITP
finally.
now my ITP is like holiday.
SERIOUS.
=)

k back to gaming.

2009-03-21T13:57:00.003+08:00

admitted tat i am in a very bad shape now.
kinda having difficulty in breathing.
but still i continue to anyhow eat.

its time to see a doc.

anyway, 3rd wk passed.
4 more wks to go.
transferred to work at aero lab 2 .
more slack i shld say.
no nid to stay in the lab all the time.
=)
ohh ya.
results came out on wed.
kinda fed up.

MM2105
MECHANICS 2 A

MA002S
UNDERSTANDING WEATHER A

MM2022
AMP B

MM2420
AIRCRAFT POWER PLANTS I B+

MM2208
CATIA C+

ET0176
AEIS D+

frankly speaking its the 1st time i got a D+.
apart from getting it in my additional maths.
but yea this 1 rly fucked up my gpa this sem.

Semester GPA:
3.083
Cumulative GPA:
3.24

yea tats how bad tat is.
damn freaking sian.
while 6 or 8 of my frens got 4,
almost more than 1/2 of my class above 3.6,
i once again became the bottom few.
freaking demoralised.
did work alrd.
and electronics just sucks.

busy with ITP stuff and FYP.
start work start work.
if not no time.

L4D IN MY COM IS WORKING.
WOWOWOOWOWOWOOO ~

2009-03-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

am damn tired after today.
no gaming for me today.
freaking tired.

can say i finally free myself from all the trouble.
=)
dont think there will be any trouble for me now.
and dont rly care how it will continue anyway.
i want to spend my remaining 1 yr happily as a clt.
thats all.
=)

results coming out tomorrow.
TOMORROW.
fuck.
i dowan C please.
i wan A i wan A =)
pray harder first before i slp.
lol.

slping time !

2009-03-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

hello.
bbye.
cos time is dota.
=)

edited//
2nd wk of wkends gone.
5 more wks to go.
my attachment that i dont rly find it useful.
yea.
wadever.
look forward to nxt wkend alrd.
never felt so good after 1 wk.
all my troubles gone for now .
hopefully forever. =)

ohh ya.
LIVERPOOL 4 - 1 MANCHESTER UNITED
=)
its nt abt the title race.
its abt humiliating man u at old trafford.
tats enuf alrd.
=)

ok time for slp.
tomorrow shall be another tiring day.
perhaps,
perhaps,
perhaps ~

2009-03-13T22:43:00.003+08:00

it all comes down to this.
after 2 years of trying to improve the district.
this is what i get.

not even a thank you.
not even any appreciation.
he just keep trying to make me disappear.
in terms of age, i lost.
just dowan anymore of wadever things to happen again.
i give up.

dont mess with my final retreat.
if one reaches its dead end,
i will really bite.
even if both of us gets it.
i dont mind.

just dont let me see him when i grow up.
thats all i wanna say.

Crawling - Linkin Park

2009-03-13T00:20:00.002+08:00

i know how i want to live my life.

instead of worrying,
y not start thinking.
bout what i can do before my army.
i realised it finally.
=)

time for game.

2009-03-09T20:43:00.002+08:00

the rain has fallen.
its clear for now.

or will there be a new storm?
hopefully not.

i am really sick of all the nonsense.
hope its cleared soon.

edited//1140pm.
decided to blog the below somewhere else.
if u all kpoh den ask for password ba.
dont feel like posting here.
here.

2009-03-08T19:18:00.001+08:00

this is what i call.
PURELY NONSENSE.

how cool can it be.

going out liao.
hopefully it will turn out fine.
=)

2009-03-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

my first friday for the 7wks.
never been happier to be released from sch.
seriously.

nxt wk.
i gonna strike.
i wan my pay.
i dont want be a free labour anymore.
at least gimme a bit of transport + eating money i also happy.
SP so freaking rich y so stingy.
z.z

although chnl U 7pm show.
tday last epi.
and i MISSED it.
nvm.
fren found me a source to watch it =)
heng ah.
come to think of it.
whenever i start watching a series i like,
i wont even think of stop watching it.
until its finished.
which is y taiwan long epi show dont interest me.
those 意难忘 kind of shows bore me to hell.
korean and jap 1 .
well done =)

gonna buy harddisk soon.
seriously need to buy.
going for a d***l*** spree soon.
cant spell the word out.
later kanna fine.
=)

slping.
i dono y i agree on tomorrow but yea.
hopefully i wont be grumpy at harbourfront.
645am.
HOPEFULLY.
if not.
i dono wad nonsense i will say there.
everything tat piss me off perhaps ?
expect to hear dogs barking tomorrow.
=)

till then.